My journey with having an eating disorder and fitness

I thought I would step out of my comfort zone and talk about something that those with an eating disorder never really feel that comfortable talking about…and that is that we have or had an eating disorder. No, I am not a therapist of any kind so the opinions expressed are of my own experience with having an eating disorder from the age of about 19 years old to about 28 years old.

I grew up a tomboy, playing sports all of the time from the age of about 7 to 18. Then something called “real life” happened and the fairy tales experienced as a child are gone and responsibilities took place. Any pressures or “not so fun” things experienced as a child seemed to surface and they had to be dealt with. Of course as you get older, you become more aware of things and coping mechanisms are created to deal with stressful situations. Some coping mechanisms are healthy such as writing in a  journal, going for a run and talking to others.

I was a quiet child, I know hard to believe if you know me now, but my stress relief as a child was playing, running, pretending I was chasing the bad guy, using my imagination. I was an insecure child who didn’t have the “in” clothes or the “in” haircut, oh and we had little to no money. I went to a school where everyone’s parents were either a doctor or lawyer and my mother was working exceptionally hard to just make sure we had food and a roof over our head.

As a teen, pretending to be who you are not is a lot of hard work and a lot of unwarranted stress.  I was no longer a child though and life super smacked me in the face. I was a grown up and had too much stress thrown my way. So, control for me came at the hands of food and lots of it. I could control what and how much I ate and when I wanted to “release” the fullness and control, I did so.

As time went on, life had it ups and downs, but then I found the fitness track again and the healthy means of controlling my life. I met people who had my same goals in mind, which was living a healthy life by eating right and being active. I talked to people about my journey with food and they did not judge, they listened and some could actually relate.

I believe my unhealthy journey with food and the on-going battle with food and stress in my life unknowingly created a willful, determined and strong mind that to this day helps me overcome things by way of literally working out the problem instead of eating it away. My workouts are not unhealthy, meaning that I don’t for 2-3 hours at a time running, doing weights, etc… I am on a schedule and if I have to veer from that schedule for some reason, I make sure that I hold myself accountable to doing something active the next day.

It works for me to say, “A healthy mind is essential for a healthy body”, so I have committed myself to eating well, working out at least 5 days a week, associating with healthy, like minded people and eliminating as much stress from my life that I have control over.

If you can relate to any of this, then don’t hesitate to contact me. I am here to help people on their journey to having a healthier, active and happier life.  I am proud to say that I am 10 years “clean” so I must be doing something right.

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